Friday, May 29, 2009

LEFT

I did not sleep well for days.
I NEED REST!
He left.
Wish him good and safe.
I miss.
Goodbye.


p/s: Few posts are waiting for me. Sorry. I know I'm late. Frogive me.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

THE LITTLE GIRL

The little girl is now unhappy.
The little girl is afraid to grow up.
The little girl scares to make wrong choices.
The little girl can't see her future.
The little girl is going to fall.
The little girl has a little boy.
The little girl has a broken family.
The little girl has limited real friends.



I don't know what shall I say here.
I'm totally blank.
I just want my boyfriend. =(
I need a brain wash.
I'm really tired.
I need GOD and my boyfriend to be with me right now.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

NO RIGHT



She has no right to control her life now.
She's a weakly small girl now.
She has no right to care.
She has no right to understand.
She has no right to know.




地震的夜晚 赶来 作伴
重感冒的凌晨 煮着稀饭
这个让我哭过的人多么温暖
我感谢我们 不完美 却坦白自然
我们从牵手放手又牵手
走过来 愿意为更懂你的心
Spending all my life
每当情绪像海 你只抱我
从不催我讲出来
我就明白 你是我的依赖
地震的夜晚 赶来 作伴
重感冒的凌晨 煮着稀饭
这个让我哭过的人多么温暖
我感谢我们 不完美 却坦白自然
我们从期待失落又期待
走过来 愿意为一起看未来
Spending all my life
每当变成习惯 生活太淡
总有感动的意外
我就明白 你是我的依赖
就算说幸福都由老天 在管
只借不送 我还是不肯还
用真爱耍赖
我们从日出日落又日出
走过来 愿意为爱你去忙碌
Spending all my life
每当命运变换 需要狂欢
需要流泪 你都在
我就明白 你是我的依赖
我们明白 爱是互相 依赖

Monday, May 18, 2009

DEEP INSIDE

Once again, things doesn't go smoothly.
Eventhough the busy man, kamsaimie can sense that I got a lot of problems that I kept in heart.
When can I go through all these?
After I ate all of my dad's and grandpa's words, I felt a deep cut inside my heart that no one can feel it.
I'm writting out not to get sympathize but just to express my feelings.
This blog will be the machine for me to release out all of my inner feelings.
I'm in a dilemma.
Should I quit the job? Should I listen to the older ones? Should I be what I wanna be?
Anyway, I need to be tough.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

FAMILY VS LIFE

I never thought I can have a chat with my grandpa who really loves me till the max again after years.
He's a real great grandpa.
Although our relation not good as before but I'm glad that he's understanding.
I chatted with dad last 2 days.
I pity him and at the same time I'm angry at him.
I'm really stress to face this family.
I don't know which feelings should I have when I'm facing them.
I'm my dad's princess and grandpa's 1st grandchild.
I knew they care bout me but I have my own situation too.
But when grandpa talked to me just now, I can't express a word except shed my tears for 40mins.
I have to think bout their feelings and myself too.
I don't know which to choose.
Should I let the family happy or I'll be the selfish one just let myself happy?
I'm confused.


p/s: I have to say sorry to baby cause I gonna take pill again. Or else I can't sleep.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

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THE KAMSAIMIE

Heartache.
I'm sad to see kamsaimie this suffer.
I wanted to cry so much but I have to hold.
I just can accompany kamsaimie for short time.
I don't know.
I wanted to help.
I'm going to look wider.
Hope the kamsaimie be tough.
I hope suffer for a moment turns out a better life in the future.
Small hand is holding and supporting the big hand all the time.
While big hand holding the small hand just now, the owner of big hand told the owner of small hand.
"I wonder how long will these 2 hands hold this way."
All of sudden, I felt something in my heart.
I got no idea what feelings I got at that moment.
I just knew that I don't want to lose the owner of big hand.
Or frankly, I'm scare to lose.
So when we're going to rest, I asked something really stupid.
"Will u leave me the next day when we're doing good today?"
I can easily slept without having insomnia when I have him beside me.
I felt comfortable and I can sleep tight.
He's my medicine.
I'll put away all my problems and sadness when I saw him.
I felt touch to have him.
I my boyfriend.

Friday, May 15, 2009

CHARITY TO A POOR MALAYSIA POLICEMAN

GUESS WHAT???!!!!!
I just done a good charity to a poor Malaysia's policeman!!!
I "donated" my only RM50 to him.
Reason?
Cause he said I drove more than 100km/h!!!
I was like????????????????? WTF!
I knew there're police block anywhere so I don't dare to speed and I just drove 70 to 80km/h only.
He asked me to show my license and ask where I went and where I'm going.
As if he's my boyfriend or daddy. (Yewww~)
He also asked where I study and what my dad's occupation. PLEASE FUCK OFF!
I asked for saman but he don't want to give me a saman and drag the topic.
Like I got a lot of time to chat with him. =.="
Please la.
He asked me, "U nak saya tolong atau nak pergi ke balai kami bayar RM300 saman."
I said, "I nak bayar RM300."
He said, "Saya boleh tolong kalau ada ni." (while showing the hand sign)
I said, "Saya nak balik sekarang. I nak bayar RM300."
He said, "Boleh. (With a very fierce expression) Tunjuk I.C."
I gave him my I.C.
But.....................................................................
He still keep chatting with me!!!!
Obviously he want to drag my time and want me to donate money to him.
At last I donated my very last RM50 to this policeman.
He wasted my very precious 15mins.
I'm really angry bout this issue.
I'm speechless.
That's why I always hate the policemen.
Never like them or be proud of them.
Because they're just like a piece of shit with no brain.
I swear and curse that if he use the RM50 that I gave him, his family member will never get peaceful life due to his sinful action.
Sit back, Relax and Wait.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

JUNEEBABY

Today is Juneebaby's 18th birthday!!!

Come. Let's SING!!
Happy birthday to u,
Happy birthday to u,
Happy birthday to Juneebaby,
Happy birthday to u!!!

She gave me a lot of memories.
We're still the kissy babegirls!


Year 2008
Year 2007
Year 2007
Year 2008
Year 2008
Year 2006
Year 2006
Year 2008
Year 2008
Year 2008
Year 2009
Year 2009
Year 2009
Year 2009

Wish Juneebaby happy always. =)

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

ONCE

Once I'm born, I'm related to this person.
I'm being pampered by this person from the day I born until today and days after this.
There was once, I'm very close with this person.
I thought I won't get beaten by this person in my life but this person did once when I'm once.
After that once, our relation just went down until today.
We never talk and play anymore.
We became stranger.
We just talk the important issues but no more joking.
3 years ago before the economic goes down, we started to talk a lot and started to joke around.
But not anymore from end of last year.
Till now we take each other as stranger.
I respect this person very much and want to be the most important person in this person's life.
I want to be the best and don't want to disappoint this person but at last I did.
I thought of nothing bout this person anymore.
I don't care bout this person's feelings anymore.
This person became depressed and pressured once economic went down.
I have no more words to this person after I started working.
We tried to talk to each other but we can't.
Time don't allows us.
This person is trying the best to give me everything and I knew that this person loves me much.
But we lack of communication.
Lack of communication is a big problem.
I called this person just now and this person wants to have a talk with me.
We agreed to talk on Friday night.
So this is the time to blurt out everything with my tears too.

This person is my once beloved DADDY.

Monday, May 11, 2009

THE ONE

On the 2nd of May 2008, I met this guy and we enter to each other's world.
Although we just knew for exactly a month but we fall into each other.
We may not know each other well but we try to know.

On the 2nd of May 2009, it was our very 1st anniversary.
We gone through 365 days.
In these 365 days, we love, we miss, we're sweet, we're happy, we hate, we sad, we angry, we argue and we broke up once too but back together again.
Day by day, we changed, we learnt, we understand.

This is just the beginning for us.
The road is still long for us.
We climbed up to the mountain and climbed down together but I believe they're higher mountain that we have to climb.
I'm glad and blessed.

I just thought of how we gone through this ONE year.
We started off with a very sweet lovely couple.
Somehow, every couple will experience bitter and sour moment.
Heartache, Emotional.
Then, sweet + bitter.
And that's it, we blurt things out and be more understand.
As long as one tolerate and endure, everything seems fine.
So we have to take turns to tolerate.

Trying to be understanding isn't hard but trying to make someone understand, it is hard.
Sometimes, we felt tired to make the other half to understand.
That's what we have to think a solution no matter how tired we are.

This guy had his good and bad points.
I do have too.
Whose wrong or right, just different point of view.
But I enjoy to be with him because I'm showing my real me in front of him.

I really hate jealousy. =P
I have to control and avoid from thinking bout it.
But once I can't control, I'll burst.
That was the girl's natural reaction.

Anyway, we're great. =)
We're growing up together.

We celebrated in The Apartment, The Curve.

I'm waiting
Writing the LOVE letter
Foods
Simple cake

Shoe without STOCKING!
=)
This is what I've done when he's not around. Hee..
Perasan-ing-
Pressie from boyfriend


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Sunday, May 3, 2009

MISS

I missed Lee Hom's concert!
I have to wait again.......for another 2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10 years????!!!!!!
Argh! I'm desperate..