SHE

misses her bf,

misses her foundation mates.

But,

she has to study tonight for the last paper tomorrow.

Which,

the subject she hate the most.

She hate these feelings.

She is an emo kid tonight.

BEING LIED

Having a very complicated feelings in this sudden moment.

Lies. No matter white lies or lies with purpose.

The person who being lied by the very close person will get a big hurt.

Although the person who lies doesn't feel anything big but the person who being lied will never feel good.

Some people will remain silence as they have no prove or they don't want to destroy the relation between them.

That person who being lied may have knew a lot of things but he/she wouldn't tell it out as he/she choose to trust the person who lied to him/her.

For me, I'm ordinary. I just want honesty.

If u're honest to me, I'll be honest to u.

If u don't, there will be a lot of lies from me.

Deserve my trust and don't let me disappointed.

Everyone just deserve 3 chances from me.

After that, I'll eliminate u from my heart forever.

Means u're nothing to me.

Good Night.

p/s: I'm just too boring and being emo here. =P

NO SIGNAL

I'm currently facing a big problem with my broadband.

It still under construction till this Friday.

OMG!

I can't open up websites except blogger and Skype.

@.@ So death. I'm so lost now.

Still thinking how to spend my off day.

I have to take photo upon request by the company for a long long time.

Should i get my nails treatment and colour again cause i have 5 fingernails need to extend and i seriously need to change my colour nails.

Yea, that's include my toe nails too.

Or I just let my nails to breath for some time cause I've been non-stop changing nail colours since Dec. =P

Had some chat with Bea in Skype just now.

I'm still not sleepy. Can i take sleeping pills?

Argh.. I hate insomnia.

I'm so frustrated right now.

My LCCI account certificate. (I'm so headache with it)

I got nothing to do and I need someone to talk to but then I don't have one.

As if all of the people were death.

Ohya, for X-Murnians:

Sorry that I can't attend the gathering on 26th cause I have to work. Sigh. I hope I can see u guys real soon. But then u guys can come to Pav to have lunch with me. =P

Last but not least, I took some photos during working time.

Just random:

p/s: My eyes got infection so I have to wear my ugly, aunty specs. I think I have to get a new one soon.

Things that I have to pay and buy:

1) BIOTHERM products (I've tried them and they're real great! Not using SKIN79 anymore)

2) Contact lens that ordered

3) Secret pressie

4) Heels

5) Clothes

6) Damn IZZI Broadband

7) Restock my make ups product

So obviously I'll be broke these 2 months.

Ah Gor will be coming back soon! I miss him. <3

Alright, I better get 2 sleeping pills to get myself to a wonderful dream land.

I hate you. Damn. Good Night.

EMPTINESS

Heart is numb with all kind of feelings now.

These feelings called E.M.O.

What I've learnt were people always being materialistic includes our own family and friends.

We shouldn't depend things on other people.

I felt that nowadays people just taking each other for granted and being so selfish.

But did they ever think how sad and the disappointed when they being betrayed by someone?

No, they didn't. They just wanted to satisfy themselves at that moment.

I admit that sometimes we should be selfish and love ourselves more but depends on the situation.

Being selfish by not hurting or disappoint someone's feelings.

Betray caused revenge.

Revenge became war with each other.

Soon, one will be the winner and one will be the loser.

But what's the point when both of them are getting hurt during the war?

Why people don't share and co-operate like the old times people.

I know people change but I believe that a person should change to a good one not the bad one.

I don't understand the people in this reality world.

That's too scary.

I don't know who's wearing a fake mask and who's not.

But then life have to go on.

What to do?

LIMITED

Everyone has its limit.

And I'm at my limit which I'll let things be.

And what it wanna be, I won't look for answers anymore.

Not the limit of anger but the limit of knowing why.

Though I can do nothing other than carry on, but don't blame me for the same thing I did.

Telling the truth ain't that tough but man can make it tough.

The biggest part of my life but I'm not the biggest part of the life.

Tired of finding solution to hold on my inner part of feelings.

Being selfish is a good thing but not much people can do that cos of soft-hearted.

As I said a lot of times:

Words are easy to speak, but action was the most difficult thing to prove.

It may takes a longer time to prove perhaps but not overload time.

For example:

A smoker who wants to stop smoking. He need some time to stop. It may takes him for a month or two. If he has the heart to stop, he can stop in this short time or else, it can drag him till he's dead.

Think of it.

Don't simply make promises when u can't make it.

U know the word of "promise" were a big word and it can influence a person to trust u 100%, then make it true.  

No one knows how the real feelings.

Being sweet and lovely will make the time flies but suffering and tired will make the time slow down to 100 times.

Anyway, carry on with the cycle of life. Not to waste a life that created by GOD.

Remember, limited is exist.