MAKE ME INVISIBLE

Life's like bitch for me right now. Kill me

*sniff* A little running nose here.

Things stop treating me good now.

Problems are trying to approach me now.

One by one....

Awful . . .

I barely breathe well,

I dislike being alone,

I afraid to lose the things I love,

I am stress out,

I am less secured,

Or in a conclusion, I'm being negative and attracts the negative.

One week holiday is going to end soon,

Assignments couldn't be done as I thought.

Is going to be another hectic month in June.

Wish me luck.

And . . .

I wish to get support like how I got previously when I was about to fall.

WHEN THING GOES WRONG

When we can't rewind to the past,

When we can't correct what we've done,

When we've been treated harsh by people,

When we got no more trust from people,

When we thought we can protect ourselves,

When we thought we can be tough,

When we are in the dilemma,

When we hope people will understand,

But, everything just messed up.

When we wanted to change,

When we wanted to follow,

When we wanted to accept,

When we wanted to listen,

When we wanted to care,

When we wanted to know,

When we missed chances,

And, they wouldn't give u chances anymore.

CAN I HAVE PEACE?

Stop nagging.

Everything should have a full stop.

IMMEDIATELY!

Thank you.

I'll do my decision with my own.

Thanks for criticize and comments.

I appreciate.

p/s: Will update soon. Start next week.

THE LITTLE GIRL

The little girl is now unhappy.

The little girl is afraid to grow up.

The little girl scares to make wrong choices.

The little girl can't see her future.

The little girl is going to fall.

The little girl has a little boy.

The little girl has a broken family.

The little girl has limited real friends.

I don't know what shall I say here.

I'm totally blank.

I just want my boyfriend. =(

I need a brain wash.

I'm really tired.

I need GOD and my boyfriend to be with me right now.

DEEP INSIDE

Once again, things doesn't go smoothly.

Eventhough the busy man, kamsaimie can sense that I got a lot of problems that I kept in heart.

When can I go through all these?

After I ate all of my dad's and grandpa's words, I felt a deep cut inside my heart that no one can feel it.

I'm writting out not to get sympathize but just to express my feelings.

This blog will be the machine for me to release out all of my inner feelings.

I'm in a dilemma.

Should I quit the job? Should I listen to the older ones? Should I be what I wanna be?

Anyway, I need to be tough.

NOT MY DAY

Things doesn't go smoothly today.

Insomnia for few days and major headaches for days but who knows?

I got my high temper more easily now which I can't control.

Everything ruined after I had sweet time with baby.

I'm so tired until I forgot what is the time that I work for today.

What a hilarious life.

I saw people around me changing.

I'm so bored of looking at them.

BLAH-CRAPS-

There were some happenings at my working company.

Tomorrow night, there will be a long meeting i think.

Gotta prepare a lot of mood and feelings to protect myself from getting hurt.

I wish I'm the boss cause I won't hurt my workers that way.

Too much of these and a lot of unfair.

Current mood: Tired, Readying, Sleepy, Numb

GOOD NIGHT, PEEPS.

NO SIGNAL

I'm currently facing a big problem with my broadband.

It still under construction till this Friday.

OMG!

I can't open up websites except blogger and Skype.

@.@ So death. I'm so lost now.

Still thinking how to spend my off day.

I have to take photo upon request by the company for a long long time.

Should i get my nails treatment and colour again cause i have 5 fingernails need to extend and i seriously need to change my colour nails.

Yea, that's include my toe nails too.

Or I just let my nails to breath for some time cause I've been non-stop changing nail colours since Dec. =P

Had some chat with Bea in Skype just now.

I'm still not sleepy. Can i take sleeping pills?

Argh.. I hate insomnia.

I'm so frustrated right now.

My LCCI account certificate. (I'm so headache with it)

I got nothing to do and I need someone to talk to but then I don't have one.

As if all of the people were death.

Ohya, for X-Murnians:

Sorry that I can't attend the gathering on 26th cause I have to work. Sigh. I hope I can see u guys real soon. But then u guys can come to Pav to have lunch with me. =P

Last but not least, I took some photos during working time.

Just random:

p/s: My eyes got infection so I have to wear my ugly, aunty specs. I think I have to get a new one soon.

Things that I have to pay and buy:

1) BIOTHERM products (I've tried them and they're real great! Not using SKIN79 anymore)

2) Contact lens that ordered

3) Secret pressie

4) Heels

5) Clothes

6) Damn IZZI Broadband

7) Restock my make ups product

So obviously I'll be broke these 2 months.

Ah Gor will be coming back soon! I miss him. <3

Alright, I better get 2 sleeping pills to get myself to a wonderful dream land.

I hate you. Damn. Good Night.

UNTITLED

Is 3.03am now..

Stepsis having fever and I help out a lil just now..

Pet society in Facebook for almost the whole day from 12,000 paw points to 18,000+ paw points..

Other than that, I done a few questions of account to get myself ready on 1st Dec (dad's birthday!)

Questions always appeared in the middle of the night..

Mayb I'm diff from the day time Kelly?

Just chat with Joc, Chanice and Karen bout their love matters..

Which i felt..... complicated? I bet it..

I'm blank.. (Argh.. I also don't know what am i writing now)

Don't want to talk about negative love cos i'm the lucky girl in the universe now..

Talk bout my girlfriends perhaps..

I got my F.R.I.E.N.D.S which includes Bea, MK, Babe J, Darling K, Set and Ray.. 

These 6 girlfriends will always remain.. 

Bea, MK, Babe J and Darling K will always be there for me when i need them..

Set was a K-Pop fans so will always listen to her K-stars stories..

Ray was our entertainer and director for pose in our group.. 

I'm the one who's always blur and late catch up cause my brain can't function well lately..

OH God.. I'm so out of idea what to write now..

I'm missing him so much right now.. 

I'm so depressed at this moment..

HELP!!