SURRENDER

Phew~

I just posted a kinda long post to my class's blog. (should be my ex-class now)

I don't wish to leave my coursemates as they're all great.

They got no politics and those negative stuff.

They're helpful and friendly.

Too bad, I quitted A Levels today.

I signed the form today in the office.

I'm changing course to Foundation in Business in Jan 2010.

I'll be in a new environment, new campus, new coursemate, new lecturers.

Oh, I have to get ready from now because I have to study for MATHS!

I hate Maths so much but I got no choice.

I am forced to take Maths if I wanna take business.

Plus, they have English subject too.

English I, II, III. @@

That means I have to write english essay too.

That's..............................boring.

So, I shall start back my English course in Cambridge now.

Everything will change real soon.

I just have one and half month before my course starts.

I promised myself, I must study hard no matter what difficulties I have.

I'll finished the whole course.

It only takes me 4 years to have my own degree or perhaps I'll think of PhD too.(bahahaha, dreaming)

However, I felt sad because I used to log in to Taylor's student portal daily.

As I'm not the part of theirs anymore, I can't log in anymore.

It written, The ID student doesn't exist.

I'm totally down, down, down. (not the song of down)

Although I'm there for only 3 months.

I'm just...............blank for the moment.

I wish to keep in touch with my darlings from my class in A Levels.

I'm officially out from 0906PB6 now.

I'll miss them.

=(

18TH MONTHS

Oh, time flies.

Months and months.

Today, it is our one and half year anniversary.

Rewind and recall.

From 2nd May 2008 till now.

We still love each other as before.

I'll always appreciate this honey bee.

Thank you bee for giving me what I have now.

=)

SPEECHLESS

Slept at 5am. Thanks to my flu.

Woke up at 10am cause Ray, Karen, MK and I have to do something in somewhere.

Everything were going smoothly.

Morning called Ray but couldn't call Karen as there're something wrong with her phone.

That's alright but then......

Ray called and said that she's going to see a doctor at 11.30am.

Oh no, my car was drove by grandma, Karen haven't wake up, MK is having tuition with other ppl later.

Then, someone being cool to me. I hate that and I slammed the call.

U got no right to show me that fucking tone.

Soon, I found out that someone slept late and told me earlier that he gonna sleep.

Got his explaination but I got no mood at all.

So I just ignore.

Now, just wait for my grandma to be home.

I'm sleepy and terrible sick now.

Plus, I forgot to take off my lenses.

My eyes are burning now.

Give me a break.

Let me to have a nice sleep and ready for tonight's party, can I?

D.I.S.T.U.R.B.I.A.

Health.

Decisions.

Independence.

Sleepless night.

God bless.

HOPES

Oh, sick is getting worse but under control.

Still weak but going to have a very busy weekend.

Eyes getting red cause I had sleepless night as I am busy visiting the washroom.

I just sat for LAN Malaysian Studies in the afternoon.

It was......... kinda easy if we had study the notes.

Soon after that, I vomited and time for me to visit the doctor again which I visited last 2 days.

Medicine again.

I had 6 types of med b4 this and plus today's, then it will equals to 8 types of med that I have to consume.

That's aw.......ful..........

Anyway, I really hope I'll get well soon.

Pray hard.

I thought I could be considerate.

No longer it is.

I am extremely not feeling well.

And I'm all by myself.

Looking at the books which I wanted to read.

Couldn't even focus cos of the pain.

I'm in a very down moment now.

Pushing myself to the positive non-stop.

Who's there?

No one.

2 more hours before I'm off to college.

And I have to drive all my way to college.

Left a bit of business studies notes that i need to study.

Test will be at 8am.

But I am going to sleep now.

Nights. <3